Dependency. This summer I am learning a lot about dependency. I’m realizing once again how dependent I tend to be on others, which always leads to finding my value in my circumstances and the people that surround me, rather than in my identity as a beloved daughter of the most high. I’m realizing more and more the intense longing and loneliness that begins to accumulate in me when I’m not clinging to my Father. I go through phases (like last week for instance… haha) of feeling lonely, unloved, uninteresting, and untalented, etc, simply based on my circumstances.
Those feelings of sadness and worthlessness can feel SO strong at times that I begin to falter and buy into some very big lies about my identity. I want last week to be the last phase of that kind EVER in my life. I do NOT buy into satan’s lies about who I am. He has no power here because “here”, in ME, is the house of God. My circumstances do not define my life and value and I refuse to let them drag me away from my Father’s arms, because when I step even an inch away from Him I cannot live.
I am created in the image of God. THE IMAGE OF GOD!!!!! I can’t even comprehend the weight of that statement. It means that I (and YOU) don’t have an unloved or uninteresting or untalented bone in our bodies. We are created for greatness because our God is great. We are beautiful because our God is beautiful beyond explanation. We are talented because our abilities reflect His divine personality. We are purposeful and thriving because he has promised us that that is His plan for us.
So in the seasons of doubt and confusion I will remind myself ALWAYS of who I am. I am HIS! That is sufficient, more than sufficient actually, and gives me a ridiculously awesome purpose and identity. J
2 Corinthians 4:16-18
16Therefore we do not become discouraged (utterly spiritless, exhausted, and wearied out through fear). Though our outer man is [progressively] decaying and wasting away, yet our inner self is being [progressively] renewed day after day.
17For our light, momentary affliction (this slight distress of the passing hour) is ever more and more abundantly preparing and producing and achieving for us an everlasting weight of glory [beyond all measure, excessively surpassing all comparisons and all calculations, a vast and transcendent glory and blessedness never to cease!],
18Since we consider and look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen; for the things that are visible are temporal (brief and fleeting), but the things that are invisible are deathless and everlasting.
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